During my last year of grad school, I made the decision to recover from anorexia.
God gently convicted me that I was going to kill myself. Anorexia gave me a false sense of control. Recovery was the first step toward learning to accept myself.
At first I felt terrified. What if I became fat? Yet fat was better than dead....After I started eating normally again, though, I only gained five pounds.
Anorexia was the result of self rejection, but I became kinder toward myself after I recovered. Recovery made me healthier physically, mentally, and spiritually. Ironically, I also became a good cook.
Anorexia stole my identity for a time, but recovery restored my true personality. When I was starving, all I could think about was food. After recovery, I was able to think about other things again.
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