We don't need no education

Now that I am out of school and entering the professional, corporate world...the veil is lifting, and I see Satan pulling the strings. Grad school is designed to gradually crush the soul, intellect, and creativity...ironically...until people are conformed to the current system. Then all of their talent and diligence is exploited. The evil of the system is dawning on me now.

In this corporate society, a person is not an individual crafted by God; everyone must conform to a carbon copy standard. Those who reach the highest levels of this system must compromise who they are, and essentially sell out their souls.

Society's professionals are manipulated by mind control techniques. This occurs in such a subtle way that most people don't realize what is happening. They believe in the Luciferian system and stay asleep. People outside the system have no idea, because the facade of higher education and professionalism appear so good to the world.

As I thought in high school, the education system really is a prison of sorts. Somehow, I lost sight of that truth which seemed so obvious before indoctrination gradually eroded my identity....After such programming, flimsy pride is all one is able to gain for earning a fancy piece of paper. Yet I count that as loss.

Being chained to a desk for months on end made my body weak, and I developed an eating disorder during grad school. Paranoia, depression, and bitterness have become more prevalent in my thoughts. Pride and arrogance crept into my mind, as well as crushing guilt, shame, and the sense of being a failure.

School doesn't make people smart. Plenty of fools are highly educated. Education cannot give someone creativity, an imagination, wisdom, or common sense. If I entered grad school innocent as a dove, I left wise as a fox, because I woke up to the mind control programming and realized the system is evil.

The professors lost touch with their souls long ago, or perhaps sold them willingly. They don't care about the students, and they aren't there to help. Instead of giving encouragement and building up their students, they play cruel mind games.

A month ago, we brought Penny home. She has changed so much since then, and she is still healing from a history of neglect and rejection. She is my graduation present, and she reminds me of what is truly valuable in life.

Life in this society is a daily battle, a struggle against losing one's soul. In the modern era, a sense of heaviness fell upon society as everyone grieved the passing of a more innocent way of life and thinking. Industrialization caused people to lose touch with nature, their own sense of humanity, and God.

May I never become just another cog in the machine, apathetically accepting such a fate.

Grad school is a cult

In grad school, my mental and physical health started to deteriorate. Grad school is an abusive environment...being confined to a chair, reading and writing irrelevant material, being undermined by narcissistic professors despite hours of hard work. Memories of grad school are dark, as my mind and body gradually became enslaved to the Satanic system...and I became depressed, warped in my thinking. Without realizing, I began to commit slow suicide through starvation. The memories are haunting; I'd punish myself just for being human instead of a perfect, lifeless slave.

The slave mentality of the corporate system begins full force during grad school. By no means am I the only one who has been subjected to this ritualized abuse, which is no less than mind control. Slowly losing my mind as the amount of busywork took every moment of my time and all of my mental energy...the suffering of grad school is unique and must be experienced to be really understood.

Stream of consciousness

Being right with God is the most important priority. Regardless of all else, if someone has fellowship with God, that person has succeeded in life.

One may dress up a dead object to look pretty, yet the essence of death still permeates through. True beauty is found in the inward function of life and light. Light and life give off warmth.

Counterfeit beauty can be quite flashy and superficially captivating, such as what is found in electric light, faux flowers, and cosmetic masks. The world is drawn to "beauty" such as that. Yet true beauty captures God's eye, and has eternal quality.

The beauty of form follows function. The purpose for which we are created is fellowship with God, delighting in Him, working together toward His good plan.

Do not be conformed to the culture's standard image of the "Christian woman." She is saccharine, full of fluff and empty cliches. She's pretty on the outside, yet lacks depth.

Some "worship music" is actually worship of self music.

God is a genius, the wise and brilliant mastermind behind creation, the greatest artist of all. He is the author of true beauty. True beauty is not vain.

Grieving

Again, I am overwhelmed. Life is so difficult sometimes. If I am struggling just to get through the day, how can I live for God?

But that's a fallacy, I suppose...that I must have my life "together" before I am able to serve God. Right now I can serve God, even in these difficult circumstances.

Now that Tyson is gone, I don't have much of a will to live in this world. God, what must I do to complete my purpose and leave this place? There isn't much joy in my heart now, other than the joy I find in simple pleasures. Maybe that is enough for now.

"Sufficient for the day is the evil thereof."

Like Christ told us, I must live one day at a time. Predicting the future is impossible, yet I know the One who knows the future. God, I trust You....

Sweet life must be somewhere to be found

In this artificial environment, I struggle to recall reality.

If a fish lived in a little bowl for an extended amount of time, then was suddenly thrown into a river, he would be shocked. He would no longer remember the river he originally came from. The little bowl would have started to seem like the entire world, and the river would seem like a foreign place.

Yet the river is his true home, not the bowl. God created the river, while mankind created the bowl. Mankind's creation is always less than God's...less clean, less rugged, less beautiful.

The majority of people have lost touch with what's real; like goldfish in bowls meant to become majestic koi, we are stunted.

Having fun isn't the purpose of life

Having fun is a modern concern, in the sense of seeking amusement and entertainment. Fun isn't mentioned in the Bible or other ancient texts. That's why instead of seeking to have fun, I pursue joy....

Life is too short and precious to waste time on games, drugs, and parties -- pastimes that are considered fun in this culture. Like people in the olden days, I take life seriously. That doesn't mean I never experience enjoyment; simple pleasures bring me joy, such as reading, listening to music, and spending time with loved ones. Also, I enjoy my work. Life isn't exactly fun, but it is joyful.

The value of wisdom

Wisdom is far more valuable than material wealth. God's Word is clear about that. Yet most people spend their lives seeking material wealth rather than the priceless gem of wisdom. Perhaps...like gold, silver, diamonds, pearls, rubies, and sapphires...wisdom is rare to find, perhaps even more so than physical gems.

A person can be financially poor, but rich in wisdom...and wisdom is freely given by God to all who ask Him for it.

Yet another evil invention

If I turn away for just a moment, then look at the state of the world again...I find that in a short amount of time, the world has become even darker and more deranged.

Now lab grown meat is marketed, and people think that's a good idea!

Any vile, evil product sells if dressed up to appear cute, trendy, and high tech. Lord, I am just done with this world. Yet there must be a reason I am still here, living in this chaotic moment of history.

The correct response to evil

When Saul chased David, David never retaliated in violence. He remained meek and humble, like Christ, and didn't even hold a grudge against Saul. May I respond the same way to those who attack me, God. May I be wise enough to handle such situations correctly by the Holy Spirit. May the cruelty of people not change who I am in Christ.